|||thoughts on the clock

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I'm turning older in 6 minutes. it's kinda weird to try to
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think of it that way, i think. i've never really understood why we make such a big deal out of these days. sure, when you're six or seven it's loads of fun to have a party and play gi joe's with your friends, but i mean, now it's just---
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like i always want to tell everyone 'of course i don't feel older. it's just another day.' life evolves. i feel like it's this stilted holiday, something i ought to celebrate because we arbitrarily determined som
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ewhere along the lines that these yearly things were even necessary. i mean, don't get me wrong. it's great. and i want to say thanks to everybody who appreciates me, and i understand that that's kinda what's at the heart of this for everybody else and for me and for everybody.
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i suppose i just kinda question why we need to set a day aside special for loving and appreciating and celebrating one another. i suppose i'd rather be appreciated 1/400th every day than 1/1 on 1 day of 365.
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i'm probably wrong though. i've never been right about who i was going to be looking at my own future. as far back as i started dreaming of tomorrows and of days that would never come to pass, i've never quite pegged one. 22, i mean, i thought i'd be getting married soon, not stil
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happy birthday.


peace, love, and joy to you all.